First, I'd like to thank my amazingly wonderful husband for creating this very detailed website for me. As soon as I told him I felt the need to write down all my thoughts and feelings from the last few years he volunteered his time and expertise to help me get it done. He takes pride in all he does and it definitely shows. Thank you for all your love and support.

Second, I'd like to say thank you to all that are taking the time to read this extremely sad, but true life story. It really means a lot. You all have no idea how hard it was to sit and write everything down that has happened to our family these last few years. Many tears were shed as I relived the worst time in our lives. Losing a mom is one of the hardest things a person will ever have to go through and I don't wish it on anyone. It was important though, this all had to be said. It's been too hard pretending everything with our family was good. Writing everything down was very therapeutic and now maybe we can finally start to heal.

Third, I know that some may not agree with this story being written for all to see, but just keep in mind that we know what we are doing. Too many people have been impacted because we have kept quiet and it's hard to hear your stories of guilt and sorrow when it's not deserved. We are not trying to sway anyone in our direction. Take what you will from it, or don't, just remember this is our story to tell.

Last, to my beautiful and loving mom, we love and miss you more than you know. I'd give anything to have just one more minute with you, one more hug, to hear your voice one last time. Everything I am today I owe to you. One day mom, one day I know we will be together again. I love you...

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